You know when you get a feeling that's so strong, you almost feel as if something has actually happened? Well, I have one of those at the moment; the problem is that I'm not sure what the feeling is about... It's as though there's something going in in the ether, something which affects me, but I can't put my finger on it. I can't even work out whether it's good or bad!
I'm not going down with a cold, as I'm just getting over one, nor have I got anything looming, like bills, meetings or decisions, so I'm stumped. All I know is that, just outside my field of vision, there's something waiting to manifest itself, which is unsettling. I sometimes think I think too much and don't feel enough. And maybe that's the problem; I've been so used to analysing everything lately that I've lost the capacity to just let emotions flow through and around me. It might just be the novelty of a feeling trying to muscle in that is causing the unrest. In fact, 'it' might be my subconscious's way of reminding me to balance thinking and feeling again. I may have been living too much in my head of late.
So, until I know what it is, I'm going to take my own advice and think of something else - that and maybe immerse myself in a film or a book which captivates my attention and allows my emotions to work themselves out. One of the lessons I've learned is not to allow myself to be frustrated by things I can't change.
And if it's just in my head, it will be gone tomorrow; if it's in my heart, I have the emotional capacity to deal with it, whatever it is. And if it is anything momentous, I'll let you know!
